Border Crossings

We left Acadia and headed towards New Brunswick.  I wasn’t exactly sure where we would be staying, but there seemed to be camping available in Fundy National Park.  The prices seemed reasonable after the expensive camping in the Northeast, but I was hoping to find some free camping somewhere.  As we drove through the scenic areas of US 1 from Maine to Canada, I was continuously blown away by the kaleidoscope of colors dancing past us. img_3082 It was a beautiful day out and the sun was shining boldly, so the leaves were out playing in the light like children on a playground….. I could almost hear the playful laughter rolling off the mountainsides. I quite often use longer drives to catch up with friends from home and this day was no exception.

I chatted with a few friends and deeply enjoyed the connection with each of them and felt my heart filling up with each word exchanged.  I am consistently reminded of the AMAZING friendships I have back in Florida.  This reminder both warms my heart and send tears down my face all at the same time!!!

We closed in on the border of Canada and I felt so good since we would be making it to the area of Fundy National Park in daylight to figure out where we were going to set up camp for the next few days. We pulled up to the window at the border crossing and handed over our passports and answered the same set of questions we answered going into Ontario near Niagara.  Q. What are you doing in Canada? A. Seeing your beautiful country. Q. How long will you be here? A. 10-12 days. Q. Do you have any weapons (guns, pepper spray or tasers)? A. No sir. Q. Do you have any drugs or alcohol on board? A. No sir (smiling)             Q. Does the father of the child know you are bringing her into another country? A. Yes, he is aware. Then he sent us around the corner and into the Border building with a piece of paper.  img_2880We arrived skipping into the building with big smiles, filled with excitement to be spending a little bit of time in Canada.  The agent at the counter greeted us with a smile and then asked the same set of questions, yet all worded in a slightly different way.  I remember thinking “hmmmmmm, either they don’t communicate well or they want to see if I’m answering the same” i.e. Am I telling the truth? (I know this from all the discovery questions I ask clients). I answered all the same and then he continued with further questions.  Q. Where are you staying? A. I’m not sure, somewhere at or near Fundy National Park, I’m not big on plans (laughing). Q. You mean you have no reservations?      A. No sir, we are (Sienna continues to interject answers to all his questions like here she says, “no reservations, our plan on this trip is to have no plan”) I smile with pride in her interaction and accuracy.  He eventually asks Sienna to go have a seat on the bench so he can ask me more questions.  He asks where I live and I smile again and answer that “officially” I live wherever my camper is. I noticed at this point he was not really engaging in this conversation and the level of questioning was increasing with a tone of concern in his voice.  He asked where my legal residence is, I tell him for all practical purposes Florida is home.  He asks what I do for a living.  I tell him I’m taking some time off to recharge but that I have worked in mental health for the past 16 years.  Again with concern he asks how I am supporting myself and how I am funding this trip.  I explain it’s been planned and we spent a lot of time saving pennies to make it happen.  He switches gears and begins the line of questioning about Sienna and where her father is and if he is ok with me taking her out of the country etc…. I assure him everything is fine and I understand there is always a concern of parents absconding with a child and let him know that is not the case.  He tells me that it’s nice I know that but how can he be sure that’s not what I’m doing.  He looks at Sienna and says he can see she is happy and excited about the trip, but he can’t just take my word and asks if I have documentation giving me permission to leave the country.  I look in shock at him and tell him that I have traveled to Mexico, Costa Rica, Argentina, Uruguay, etc…. and I have NEVER even been asked and I apologize for not being better prepared.  I was sincerely apologetic for not having all I needed to make his job easier.  I told him we could certainly call Sienna’s father if he wanted.  He just nodded his head.  Then began the line of questioning regarding drugs and weapons and alcohol.  I assured him that I had none of these things. He looked at me with raised eyebrows and a side-cocked head, lowered his voice and said, “Are you SURE?” I smiled and sweetly responded, “YES, I am sure!!” This went back and fourth for a bit and then he told me to have a seat, as he would be searching my car.  Sienna and I chatted and laughed and played games as we waited.  I looked at the clock and realized it had been almost an hour. UGH!!!! So much for us making good time…… I wondered how long this was going to take.

“Excuse me ma’am…. Hello ma’am…….” My brain began to tune in and I looked up to ask “me ma’am?” Pointing at myself….. “Yes, you. Agent such and such needs you out by your car.”  I oblige and walk outside.  The car topper is opened and the contents of my car have clearly been gone trough in a very thorough manner. He asks Sienna to go stand near the front of the car and brings me towards the back.  I can sense the seriousness of his body language and confusion washes over me.  He shows me his closed fist, palm down as if I was to guess which hand had the penny in it, then flips his hand over, opening his palm to reveal a tiny keychain sized bottle of spray clearly marked “animal repellent”.  He asked me to explain it.  I was in shock…. I told him I honestly didn’t know that was in my car. I began scanning my memory bank to know where it came from….. I got nothing!!! I was quickly beginning to feel like a criminal and couldn’t understand why.  I do remember seeing that bottle in my Jeep glove box, (which I owned over 6 years ago!) but NO clue where it came from and I know I NEVER purchased it.  Someone must have passed it along to me at one point and in the purchase of this car I must have just moved it from the Jeep glove box to the Subie glove box and it had been long forgotten about…… it was about 5 years expired anyway.  The agent told me it was a $500 fine to try to bring in pepper spray and continued to question me hard about where I got it and why I was carrying it and what I indented to use it for!!! OH MY GOD….. I continued to patiently respond with the same answer…. “Sir, I had no clue it was even in the car, I apologize for for not being aware of the contents of my car! I assure you there was no intent whatsoever!!” This went back and fourth for quite sometime. Then he walked me over to the car topper and told me that when he opened it he smelled pot.  He told me he knew it was there and suggested I just tell him where it was to make everything easier on everyone.  My jaw literally fell open….. I mustered up the composure to close my mouth, yet a small laugh escaped before it was shut.  I again told him there were NO DRUGS anywhere, to to feel free to search as long as he would like.  He shook his head at me in what I perceived as annoyance that I was not making his job easier by “giving up my stash” (which there wasn’t one)! Then he told me he would be emptying the entire contents of the car and camper and asked me to think long and hard about how I wanted the day to go. I told him I wanted the day to go smoothly and swiftly, but that didn’t seem to be how it was going to happen.  I asked him what I could do to help him and he excused me back to the building.  I couldn’t help but feel nervous and a slight panic set in about what he was going to find and if I was going to end up in Canadian Jail with social services called to remove Sienna from my custody. UGH!!! I hated these thoughts, especially since I had done NOTHING wrong and there was NOTHING to be found, but the thoughts and feelings still surfaced.  Sienna and I held hands walking back to the building and I noticed her grip a little tighter than usual on my hand.  She looked up at me with a bit of concern and asked what was going on.  I told her what was happening and with complete disgust she shook her head and said, “this is so ridiculous, we don’t have anything that’s against the law…. maybe someone is setting you up mama” and then her brain started to work overtime trying to make sense of it all……. She asked if we would get in trouble for the saw I had in the camper for cutting wood, she asked if we could get in trouble for the small hand axe for cutting kindling, she asked if we would get in trouble for the sparklers in the back seat, she asked if we would get in trouble for the pocket knife we had and on and on she went with worry about what was going to happen to us.  She asked if we would go to jail, she asked if we went to jail would we be able to stay together. I patiently told her we had nothing to worry about because we did nothing wrong, but couldn’t help thinking about all the people who do nothing wrong that end up spending time in jails because someone decided they looked like a criminal and they fit a description and BAM….. life was forever changed!! We both nervously played for ANOTHER hour as the search continued.  We would look outside occasionally and see the hood popped or the topper contents emptied and I had to go outside to pop up the camper and watch them going through all our stuff.  I was asked the code to unlock my phone which I gave up because I had NOTHING to hide!!!!

Once again I was summoned outside, I was taken around the side of the camper and the agent once again gave me a very accusatory look pointing at a pile of campfire wood asking me to “please explain this ma’am!!” I couldn’t help but chuckle and stated, “well, it’s campfire wood”.  He asked why I was trying to sneak it in the country and again I sincerely apologized and told him I didn’t know it wasn’t allowed, there was no criminal intent at all! He told me he would have to confiscate it.  I told him no problem.  He then informed me he couldn’t find my pot and he couldn’t even find my rolling papers or any other paraphernalia. I assured him it was because there wasn’t any. He just looked at me in disbelief.  He asked me if I wanted help putting things back in the car and the car topper and getting things settled back in my camper.  I accepted his offer and we worked together to put things back in their proper place.  I often gave him instructions of proper placement and he just followed the directions….. it was so odd!! I noticed he seemed to be moving with an air of defeat.  I told him not to feel badly about not finding anything because there simply wasn’t anything to find.  He didn’t seem to believe me still.  We got everything put away and inside we went.  Again, the line of questions started about Sienna and what I was going to be doing in Canada.  He informed me he looked through my phone and saw my various Instagram pages and noticed I was into yoga and asked if I was a teacher.  I told him I was and that didn’t help my cause.  He asked me if I planned on entering Canada to teach yoga and live in my camper.   He asked if I was fleeing the US. He asked if I was planing on establishing a life in Canada.  He asked what I had in the states to pull me back.  He commented that I had no property, no real job, no husband and that was EXTREMELY concerning to him.  He stated that since I did not have any of those things he didn’t see any reason for me to return to the U.S.  I assured him there were MANY reasons to return…. I began to list them ALL!!! Gently smiling as I mentioned each friends name! As the list continued and I added various places that were of value to me and all the places we have yet to see on our trip….. I just continued to ramble, finally he cut me off and said “I get it”…. I assured him he didn’t “really” get it, but I was feeling proud that my list of reasons to return was so long that he got bored and needed to cut me off.  He grilled me for about another 30 minutes, passively threatening to NOT let me in the country, all the while I smiled and calmly answered his questions.  I was actually surprised by my own grace and calm, a situation like this would usually tweak me out and I would be tight and short and edgy with all those around me, especially Sienna, making it CLEAR to everyone that I was NOT happy with the inconvenience of being OFF schedule etc….. Note to self: a shift is occurring!!! I was excited at the thought that the softening I have been working on may be taking hold!!!

FINALLY he told me he was going to let us in the country after one last attempt to pull a confession of drugs and weapons out of me!! As we pulled away I watched the last of the sunlight drop behind the horizon and wondered where we would sleep for the night with this huge delay. img_2889We drove to get closer to the National Park and found a sweet little diner with wifi where we stopped for dinner.  We had delicious burgers and to my complete joy they had gluten free buns and sweet potato fries!!! Instantly all was right in the world lol…… Our waitress was so kind and heard me talking about our experience and assure me it wasn’t me and that the border here was VERY tough!!! It was a shock to me since the border in Ontario was a complete joke!!! She let us sit in our booth and use the wifi as she cleaned up and shut down for the night.  We continued on our path for a bit, as I was hoping to make it to a campsite.  As the miles went on I felt my eyes getting heavy and we were passing through a large town, so I took a random shot that there might be a place for us to sleep for the night. Low and behold there she was, all lit up…… Our familiar friend Walmart!!!! I wasn’t sure how Canadian Walmart’s would be and felt extreme relief when we turned the corner into their parking lot to see 3 other RV’s popped out and set up for the night. img_2904Whoooooooo Hooooooooo!!! So we pulled in and made ourselves at home and decided we would figure out the next part of our visit in the morning.  We both drifted off gazing at the beautiful moon beams shining through our window, softly snuggled in our cozy bed!! I felt a smile wash across my face and my heart was happy….. Looking forward to seeing what else Canada has in store for us on our adventure!!

Love & Light

Me

Truth be told…….

My oh my, where do I begin? It’s been awhile and what I want to write is I’ve been struggling and that’s why I have been so disconnected.  But the truth of the matter isn’t that I’ve been struggling the entire time…. I have had epic and magical times, I have gotten lost in the amazing adventure and I have been more focused on enjoying my time than documenting it.  I have also had some deeply painful struggles and some self reflection that was ugly to look at, but much needed!! I have felt incredible bliss, deep love, magical joy and I have also felt sadness that felt like it was going to split me open, incredible loneliness, fear that i wanted to run from and found strength in areas I forgot I had!!!  I have kept private notes and LOTS of bullet points that I want to revisit to share with everyone.  You see I love to write!!! I have always found it a way to make sense of my feelings and organize thoughts and either keep it for myself or share with others…… I share in hopes of inspiring others or letting someone know they are not alone or maybe just to share my own life experience in hopes that it will touch another being!! I guess in many ways I write to feel the Divine thread that weaves through the Universe and connects us all.  For as long as I can remember, I have been painfully aware of my aloneness in this world.  Even in times of my life that it has been filled with people and places and activities I have felt alone.  I felt alone until I connected to my source, my truth, my own divine spirit that is fed from the Universal love and light that fills us all…….. I have found this connection in a variety of different ways over the years, but most recently I have found it through my practice of Yoga, meditation and the seeking of Buddhist teachings.  I was so filled with this light when I returned from Bali, as my life was centered around EVERYTHING that I love and fills my soul so that I may be of the greatest benefit to others.  That is my life goal,  to continue to grow into the greatest version of myself, so that I can be of service to others…… That is where the magic is born for me!!!

With all of the above taken into consideration, it seemed like a fantastic idea to write a blog and share our adventures in hopes of inspiring others.  To document the ups and downs and all rounds, so that I could look back over the year and reflect and also to feel connected to others while I set out on a solo journey with my girl.  I wanted to stay in contact with all the incredible people who have supported both Sienna and I over the years that brought us to this incredible adventure.  I wanted to write with a transparency, which actually scared me at times, but I wanted it to be raw and authentic.  I wanted to share the incredible places we visited in hopes that one day someone would add a special spot onto their own list of “must see’s” and think of us when they had their own adventure.  I wanted people to know where we were so they could suggest awesome places in surrounding areas since I don’t do much research, I just show up places lol…… But what happened was in my true perfectionist form, (shhhhhhhh don’t tell anyone) I lost the love of it all.  Writing felt like an obligation and something I “HAD” to do…… I began to resent it and it had only been a short time, lol.  I put all this pressure on myself to have it look and feel a certain way and when I couldn’t keep up because I was enjoying the experiences I beat myself up and felt like such crap about the entire thing I just disengaged!!!

Match that with not doing the things that make my soul sing; yoga, meditation, connecting with nature, being in the present moment, connecting with the divine light, working out, being with people, doing something for someone else, going slow, staying with my breath, setting an intention for the day, being kindness……. and KABAM!!!!! Even amongst my most epic trip and amazing adventures I found myself slipping into a depressive state.  Yes, I would have moments even days of joy, but there was this underlying weight that snuck up on me in the midst of an amazing adventure……. I got caught in my old ways.  I didn’t put the things that are important to me first.  I got caught up in all the doing and going and the hiking and the seeing and the flash cards and the schooling and the teaching and the learning and the adventuring and the meeting of people and all the other epic shit I’ve been up to, but I forgot me…… I forgot I need to slow down and settle in and be still!!! I forgot I need to meditate and practice yoga and connect!!! I forgot to breathe……… So in this moment as I write with my heart (yes, I’m enjoying it) I am recommitting to taking care of me.  To do the things I know feed my soul and fill me up!!! Because I know so very well that I cannot serve anyone else from an empty cup.  And today I realized how empty my cup was!!! This is a cup that cannot be filled by others (even though that would be so much easier because I have AMAZING people in my life that definitely try) but it is a cup that is solely my responsibility to fill.  I commit to taking care of myself because I love me when I show me how important I am……. When I am filled with love and doing love filled activities, I can’t help but share it with others…….

So I continue to live and learn and grow.  At some point I will continue to play catch up with writing about my adventures in hopes of inspiring others and I commit to sharing authentically when the spirit moves me to do so…… I am giving myself permission to just be.  To know that I am enough just as I am and to know that everything is unfolding just as it needs to for my greatest growth……. There is no pressure, no expectation, no judgement…… Today I refocus and practice what I preach.  With each exhale I settle deeper into my truth.  With each word I type, I feel the stillness and my heart welcomes me back into itself……. It gently smiles and wonders what took me so long!

Love & Light,                                                                                                                                                  Me

Up close and personal with Niagara Falls

Sitting by the fire in Niagara, NY and I am overwhelmed with emotions.  For all that we have learned so far in the 7 short weeks we have been on the road.  It’s hard to think it hasn’t even been two months with all that we have learned and seen and done…… It feels like so much longer!!

Sienna and I are in a good place.  We are taking the things we are learning and applying them all the time.  I get worried and frustrated sometimes because it doesn’t feel like we do enough “school” but I seem to make everything an educational, learning experience and hope that will be enough.  We are tackling math and money and budgeting…. We do science and geology and geography and LOTS of nature….. We have started multiplication and often do word problems in our conversations.  We engage in all things history and I make her read and write daily.  So hopefully I am passing the test as a teacher so far!!! Even though so many days I feel like I am failing her educationally…… I guess I justify it with knowing that she can make up certain things pretty quickly, but she will never be able to “learn” in a classroom what she is experiencing out here on the road.  We met a family today who is traveling till March with their 5 kids in a small motorhome and they are “unschooling” their kids and everyone is loving it….. After that conversation I felt so much better!!! It so interesting to see what we get hung up about regarding expectations and how we are perceived by the world around us.  I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t think twice if it wasn’t for the judgmental statements that I get regarding how I’m managing teaching Sienna everything she is missing by being out of traditional school.  And just like that I realize that I’m learning so much more on this trip than anyone and we are going to be fine!!!

Niagara has been filled with it’s own vibe.  Pulling into the campground (a little state park with REALLY low costs for sites with electric hookups and full facilities) it was much more open that I traditionally prefer.  It was mostly RV’s and only a few strategically kept trees, with A LOT of wide open space and no wooded sections.  Yet the grounds were pristine, and there were large spaces that made backing the camper in a breeze.  The playground was large and well kept and there were a lot of open grassy spaces to play ball or frisbee or anything else really.  The bathrooms are SUPER clean and the showers have hot water that lasts a REALLY long time.  Both the sinks and the showers have really great water pressure and water that stays on until you turn it off, unlike some that you press on and they stay for about 3 seconds until you press it on again. There is a large wash sink for dishes and laundry facilities on site.  ALL of these little details make a HUGE difference living on the road.  I also get to go to bed and wake up with INCREDIBLE views of Lake Ontario and on clear days you can see Toronto across the lake.  It is so beautiful!!! The breeze off the lake makes the hot weather so much more tolerable and we have definitely spent MORE time outside here than anywhere else!!! The small downsides are the biting flies at sunset and the fact that there is NO wifi anywhere.  You literally have to drive 20 min to town to send an email.  I’m also PRAYING that I’m not racking up roaming fees bouncing off a Canadian cell tower this close to another country…… I guess I should call AT&T tomorrow.

We pulled in without reservations and got a waterfront spot for the 3 nights we were hoping for.  We were both craving a slow pace here as I am currently battling some sort of infection that has me hacking up phlegm at all times.  I’ve tried everything and it’s still hanging on which has me slightly annoyed and concerned, but in typical form I’ll keep trying to fight it off without medicine.  DayQuil liquid-gels have become my best friend and keep me going.  When we arrived I completely emptied the car and we cleaned EVERYTHING out and organized what we needed and actually threw away about 3 plastic bags worth of accumulated JUNK! (It’s crazy how fast that can happen when you basically live out of the car.) We both felt so much better!!! Then we took hot showers and headed to the tiny town to take care of some logistical issues with the camper and restock food supplies.  Driving to Niagara I stopped at an Advanced Auto Parts and had them test the camper battery since it completely stopped working and wouldn’t even get a good charge the last time we were in West Virginia.  It turns out the camper battery was operating at about 1/3 it’s capacity and wouldn’t be able to be charged back up past that.  So I purchased a new battery and was on my way.  I also got the good news that the plug seems to be working ok, so at this point I’m not needing to replace that just yet!! Whooooo hoooooo for the small successes. We arrived at the small hardware store to have them check my propane tank and fill it up.  It was practically empty, I got the good news that my gauge is faulty and only hits the red zone when it is literally 20 seconds from empty.  The guys told me they go all the time and not to even bother replacing it and just go off feel.  I laughed and nodded and decided to go with his plan! He said to watch it more carefully when I start running the furnace off the propane tank because it will go in a few days to a week.  I thanked him for the tip and we headed to the grocery store.  We arrived at Tops and had a HUGE wakeup call on food prices.  When there’s only 1 grocery store for at least 30 miles and it’s all small towns, they sure can get away with JACKING the prices up!!!! I was astonished at the prices of things.  So we got what we needed for a few days and figured we could stock dry goods at a cheaper stop.  All I know is I was soooooooo happy to be getting back to cooking.  We have been eating to many meals from gas stations (which usually consists of a microwave mac and cheese for Sienna or a cup o noodles and a can of sardines for me) Oh the joys of car days!!! So I stocked up on some REAL food to cook ALL meals and started feeling better immediately!!!

We got back to the camper just in time to go collect firewood (another thing I just can’t stomach purchasing anymore) and catch the sun melt into the water over the lake.  img_3102We found about 8 large pieces of wood each about 6 feet long and hauled them back to our site.  A few people laughed and asked why we didn’t just buy wood and we both smiled and agreed we like this way better!! I got a good fire going and we made pouches of tinfoil filled with acorn squash, sweet potatoes, purple potatoes, vidialia onions, green peppers, mushrooms, sausage, bacon, butter, salt and pepper (a new cooking style Evan taught us in West Virginia that we are LOVING getting super creative and experimenting with!!!)  It was so DELICIOUS!!!!!! img_3101I will say the next purchase I will be making is a small hand saw, I think it will come in super handy since we are foraging our own wood these days! We met our neighbors who happened to ALSO have an A-Liner (which was super cool since you don’t see to many).  They were a sweet couple from PA and he introduced himself as Gaylon and told me I could remember it because he would be playing his guitar later and I could think of Waylon (like Jennings) and then remember….. I literally laughed out loud and told him I’d never forget at this point.  His wife Laurie laughed as well and Sienna just looked at us all like we were crazy.  He commented multiple times as I was breaking the wood apart and cooking and hauling etc… how independent I was and asked why I didn’t have a man with me to take care of some of those things.  Historically this would have annoyed me and I would have felt the need to make some sort of equality statement with some sort of edgy sarcasm involved, yet tonight I just smiled and said, “well, I wonder that too sometimes and sure hope that someday I will…… But until then I can hold down the fort and take care of everything that needs to be taken care of so far.” He agreed and said he was impressed and told me he thought it would probably happen soon, I smiled and told him I sure looked forward to that day!! He grabbed his guitar and we all sang and had a lovely evening!!!img_3114

We woke up the next day to go explore the falls……. We made breakfast, Sienna had cereal and I had blueberries with the last of my coconut cream from Bali (I’ve GOT to find a way to get this here in the states!!!) and granola…… img_0960I packed our lunches and we headed out to Fort Niagara where we were told we could catch a tram down to the falls to avoid any parking issues.  It was a breeze!!! We headed to the Cave of the Wind.  We decided we would do a few of the attractions here and did our research and chose this and the Maid of the Mist boat ride.  I haven’t been feeling well and just can’t seem to shake this cold so I was looking forward to a low impact kind of day.  We walked down past the Niagara River and the power and beauty stole the breath right out of my chest!!  I am always awestruck at how connected I am to water and what it does to my being.  I quickly noticed that I felt so much more alive…… As we made our way towards the top of the falls we were blown away by how fast the water was moving and Sienna pointed out all the water features and described what type of rocks may be producing the rooster tails and water directions that were creating the whirlpools and decided to start naming the rocks in case a river guide needed to know what to avoid…… It was so cool to see the application of what she learned on the New River!!! We walked along the side of BridalVeil Falls and down the escalator to suit up in ponchos at the bottom of the gorge.  We walked through the series of stair cases and found ourselves at the bottom of the falls. The sounds of the water crashing on the rocks was deafening and we were already soaked just from the mist.  img_3103I felt my own fluidity vibrating with the constant crashing from the falls and I felt home in my skin.  Sienna wandered to the section where you could get right under a piece of the falls and feel it pounding against your body….. she was in heaven and dragged me under.

We both stood under that powerful force and let it fill us up completely…… We snuggled and laughed and  smiled till our cheeks hurt and decided to make our way on to the next stop.  We relished in the cool water since it was a HOT 91 degrees outside.

We walked toward the Maid of the Mist and found a little path that led down to the river.  We walked down there and found a huge rock near the shore that looked safe enough to have lunch on.  We hopped over to it and spread out surrounded by rushing water making it’s way to the top of the falls and over the edge.  Just up river the water was so calm and still and then it entered a stage of increased speed and had to maneuver around trees and rocks before it spilt over the edge of a massive cliff to find it’s way through rough waters and then backing a calm pool, eventually becoming a small part of Lake Erie….. One small drop finding it’s home in the vastness of Lake Erie. I couldn’t help but see the parallels of my life sitting here on this rock.  We enjoyed lunch and I laid down on the rock because I’m still not feeling well and wanted to just relax and take in the powerful water, the steady rock grounded to the earth and the warmth of the sun melting the experience into my soul.  Sienna laid on me and we had such a sweet snuggly moment reminiscing about all our lunches out on Whale Rock and all the good times we’ve shared so far on this amazing trip.  img_3107We sat there and it felt like time stood still for us! We enjoyed every slow and savory second……

Once we felt rested and rejuvenated we got up and headed towards the Maid of the Mist for our boat ride.  We walked up and got a ticket right away and got on the boat with ZERO wait, (which is apparently unheard of).  We put our poncho’s on again and headed into the falls from the river.  It was a spectacular site!! Seeing the falls from this vantage point was incredible!!

On the American side you can really only see the falls from various side views.  You never get a direct look unless you are on a boat or travel to the Canadian side and view them from straight on.  The mist is so thick you feel like you are in a massive rain storm, but it’s just the drops of water rushing over the edge bouncing around until they find their way home…… img_3108We raised our arms in victory and tossed our heads back, softly closing our eyes and let the water wash our souls free from any worries or stress and we laughed and spun around in circles in the mist…….. We spotted rainbows everywhere from the sunlight racing towards the river through the thick mist and we truly felt like we were floating on a magical sea.  img_3110We took a moment to dance in the gratitude and enjoyed the views until we returned to the dock.  img_3112We headed back towards the tram to get home and cook a nice dinner.  One last stop….. ICE CREAM!!! Sienna was so excited and surprised I just took her without her needed to beg for it and we laughed and hiked with ice cream dripping down our faces!! Life is so damn good……

Love & Light

Me

The Struggle Bus chased me down, ran over me, then backed over me a few more times for good measure!

Here I sit in the Cuyahoga Valley NP visitors center bawling my eyes out. Today is a struggle day for me and I feel it’s just as important to share these times as all the adventures! I woke up early this morning and left my friend Angela’s beautiful home filled with love and headed out towards Cuyahoga Valley. I had done some research on free campsite near the NP and was feeling excited to access our first off road site. After successfully testing dry camping with the camper in New River Gorge, we were feeling super confident about off road areas.

We finalized a few things and hit the road. We arrived at the trailhead that offered free camping to find out that there was no overnight parking and the only camping that was offered was for people back country camping without vehicles….. So I had my first melt down of the day driving around trying to figure out what to do next and trying to find a road wide enough to turn around….. I HATE putting this rig in reverse and I had to do about 3 10 point turns….. I suppose I should be grateful for the practice but I’m NOT!!!! I decided to shift into another gear after calling 2 local campsites to hear that they were all booked up. We decided to head to the visitors center to check out trails and try to connect with nature! On the way to the visitors center we got caught at a red light in a steep incline and I stalled out trying to get power….. UGH!!!! Enough already….

We arrived at the Visitors Center to get the low down. Usually rangers are so helpful and full of so much amazing information and suggestions. We felt like every question we asked was answered with a “no” or “no you can’t do that here” or “well there’s a city ordinance against that” etc….. We found out there’s really no camping except for KOA’s (which I promise you I will NOT pay to stay at EVER!!!) in the area unless you are being dropped off and have no vehicle and are doing backcountry camping….. (I was fine popping the tent, but there’s NO PLACE to park your vehicle….. Grrrrr) I googled the closest WalMart and decided to focus my attention elsewhere. We went upstairs to watch a ranger program and I sat and texted with my sweet sissy and cried and cried and felt overwhelmed with so many emotions…… The movie ended and we found out that one thing this park has is INCREDIBLE bike trails!!! So we decided to bike to a little old town and have homemade ice cream and bike back. Ahhhhh the day was coming together. I went out to unload the bikes to discover Sienna’s back tire completely flat! I walked it over to an air pump, which died 10 seconds into the process. I walked back over to the ranger center, where I was told “sorry that happens sometimes, it was working fine earlier” great!! I spotted a hand pump and asked to borrow it. I walked back to the bike and tried again to find out the tube must have been popped….. More tears fell and I decided to let them and breathe and just go with it. AGAIN, I walked back to the ranger who told me there was a bike shop about 3 miles down road. I took a deep breath and loaded the bikes BACK on the rack. As I did I noticed the 7 way plug from the camper to the car must have come undone at some point and was all burnt up from dragging on the ground….. UGH!!! Please, please still work, (this is what gives me brakes on the camper, lights in and on the camper, cools the food in the fridge as we drive and charges the back up battery). I tried plugging it in and the lights worked so I assumed all was ok. We loaded up and headed down the road to the bike shop.

We arrived at the bike shop and they fixed us up and got us on our way. The ride was soooooooo nice….. I felt stress gently floating away from me as the breeze blew through my hair on the trail. I grounded into the moment and felt relief. Sienna and I talked and laughed and let the earlier mishaps melt away. I pulled over and did some yoga and felt home back in my skin…… With each connected breath I felt love and hope and smiles and peace drift into my being!!! Ahhhhhh thank you yoga!!! We got to the turn around spot and Sienna threw a fit about the trio not being a loop trail and that just spun me right back into an angry and annoyed tizzy!!! I mean seriously….. Doesn’t she know how hard I just worked to turn the day around!!! UGHHHHHH!!! So we rode back in silence, since that was better than me losing my shit!!

By the end of the trail I was relaxing again since I went through my mala about 4x with my Om mani padme hum chant!!! That’s 424x chanting that mantra…… I wished I felt like Buddha himself, but I was only scratching the surface of my suffering today! So we rallied and started over AGAIN!! We went for some homemade ice cream at Yum Yum Sweet Shop that put smiles on both of our faces! Then decided to grab dinner and fell into wing night at Winking Lizard Tavern (recommended by the nice guy at the bike shop) and felt so much better. We were going to go to the Beaver Marsh for sunset and call it a day.

We got to the car and the battery was dead. I left the camper plugged in but we were only gone about 3 hours! COME ON Universe…… This is crazy! So we mustered up the energy to let go and laugh at the day. We started trying to wave people down for a jump and everyone would just wave back and keep driving. Sienna and I started critiquing each other on to much smile, not enough smile, to much wave, not enough… but no matter how hard we tried to perfect the art everyone just kept driving and waving back……. (Do me a favor, if you see a woman on the side of the road with a young child waving at traffic, please stop and ask if they need anything) After about 25 minutes of this craziness a police officer pulled up and we felt such relief!!! Then he broke the news that it was against ordinance to jump another vehicle due to the electronics they need to keep running in their vehicles…… I picked my jaw off the ground and told him no problem and hoped someone else would stop. Before he drove away, he told me he’d circle back around in another 30 min to check on us. Cool, thanks!!! Finally the car that was parked behind us returned from their ride on the trail and gave us a jump. We showered them with thank you’s and headed toward Walmart to end the day and start new tomorrow.

We got to the Walmart and hit the bathrooms and checked in with customer service who informed us that there was a city ordinance against parking overnight in any parking lots in Marietta, OH and that the night before a truck was towed with a man sleeping in it. The tears started again!! UGH!!! Enough of this already, I was annoyed with myself at this point! But I tried taking my sissy’s advice and decided to be gentle with myself!! I headed to the car and checked the Walmart site and noticed that all the Walmart’s in the area were NOT RV friendly! I scanned the site and found another one about 20 miles away and the manger confirmed we would be fine for the night in their lot….. So off we went!!!

We arrived to find 3 other RV’s in their parking lot, relief set in and I popped the camper up to go to bed….. Only to find that the 7 way plug that burned up earlier must not be connecting to charge the battery and the inside lights didn’t work and the fridge hadn’t been cooling while driving so we lost a lot of food. Seriously!!!!! WTF with this day….. And the flood gates opened AGAIN!!! As I was sobbing I examined the root of the tears (let’s be real, I may be totally PMSing and overly emotional, because this is a little much, even for my deeply emotional self, but there are still truths in all the emotions)…. I just kept getting hit with such deep sadness for feeling alone…. Feeling completely overwhelmed with all the crash and burns in one day…… Wishing I could just crawl into the arms of someone who loves me…… Praying that someday I’ll have a partner to face this world with…… Deeply missing the loving sense of family and home that we just left at my friend Angela’s…… Grasping at my dreams of someday sharing my life with a wonderful man…… Oh the pain is more than I can bear at times and I guess that’s why the tears fall, they just have no other place to go!!! Ugh, there I said it! My secret is out!! This fiercely, bold, brave, independent, I can do anything woman, dreams of being swept off her feet and ravished by a strong and kind and loving man! Someone who chases adventures with her and holds her in the night….. Someone to share her life with and give her love to….. Someone who will encourage her dreams and feed her fire and calm her restless soul…… Someone she can love hard and long and won’t be afraid of all that she is!! As I type this the tears dry and I feel my heart beat freely again and I remember that I don’t have to live in fear of this never happening because I have tasted it on my very own lips….. This can and will be my life!! I claim that now to the wise and magnificent Universe and a smile surfaces on my face…… And I know I have spoken my truth and it shall be so!!!

Here’s to a new day tomorrow and knowing lots of lessons were learned today!!

Love & Light                                        Me

Energy never lies…..

This morning we slept in a bit and had a lazy morning….. We wanted to do a bigger loop trail here in Hocking Hills and knew we needed good rest to take on the 6-7 miles we would be going.  I wasn’t sure what to expect for terrain but knew there would be some waterfalls.  We had a lazy morning with breakfast and got dressed to hit the trails.  We stopped at the headquarters and asked some questions about various trails.  The trail system here was a bit confusing because everything is broken down into these small, named trails from .01 miles to .05 miles that when put together make a sweet 6.8 mile loop…… So we plotted our path that would take us by 3-4 waterfalls, through some caves, down in a small gorge and then a hike back past Rose Lake and along the rim looking down into the river.

We headed out to the car and packed up our lunch and snacks and were heading to the trailhead, when another woman with a child about Sienna’s age walked towards us asking if we had jumper cables…… Well of course we do, (I was so happy that I replaced my pair after lending mine out, never to be returned). We got her van all hooked up and NOTHING…… So we chatted for a bit and both said some silent prayers and tried again…… It tried but wouldn’t completely turn over.  She went inside to call her dad who is a mechanic, to see if he could diagnose it.  We both laughed about being moms on the road with small kids and neither of us had AAA! I watched the kiddos and said some more prayers.  She surfaced from the headquarters and reported that he thought it could be the starter. We both laughed and disagreed.  I told her I had a good feeling and she tried again…. Still the same thing. UGH!!!! So we both channeled our most positive energy, flipped every switch in the car, put it in gear and then back out of gear and tried one last time…… AHHHHHHHHHH YESSSSSS!!!! It started and we both jumped up and hugged each other so tight with the biggest smiles!! There was such a gentle beauty about this woman, my soul recognized something safe and comfortable…. We both relished in that magical moment for longer than necessary and then she headed to a garage to figure out a permanent solution and we headed off to the trails…… I walked away with such JOY in my heart for the gift of being there for someone else in a significant way!!! The kids traded a blow pop for a tootsie pop and left with smiles on their hearts as well for a generous exchange with a stranger…….. Another puzzle piece of hope in humanity was solidified for us all!

We started out at the Upper Falls IMG_1291and worked our way down past the Devil’s Bathtub (which is apparently a pretty popular name of any pool of water that is deep and about the size of a bathtub in nature) and down deeper still until we found the creek.  IMG_1292There were caves to explore and we kept ohhhhhing and ahhhhhhhing at the beautiful limestone jetting up towards the sky from the creek.  There were dramatic cliffs and caves were plentiful….. We discussed various rock faces and were tempted to climb up areas that looked like they had enough handholds and footholds to support our scramble.  We decided to stay on the trail and came to Old Man’s Cave.  It’s stunning to see these caves formed from water running over millions and millions of years ago……. We enjoyed the cool air coming out of the caves and hiked past the Sphinx Head and then hiked down to Lower Falls.  IMG_1293We immediately stripped off our clothes (yes we had bathing suits on today) and flung ourselves into the watering hole and sat under the falls, feeling the water wash away any worries we may have had…… The water running off the rocks was actually much warmer from the suns rays than the pool we swam in, so we spent a lot of time under the falls.  After about 30 minuets we headed off towards Cedar Falls which was about 2.5 miles down the path.  IMG_1297At this point we lost the majority of people that were at the watering hole and we enjoyed every ounce of solitude.

We hiked past a few spots where the cliff would cover the path and a sprinkle of water would be dripping from above….. IMG_1299It was as if the cliffs were weeping that only the larger falls got the attention and not many people were venturing out to visit their beauty.  We stopped at each one and thanked them all for sharing their secrets with us! We climbed over rocks and through tunnels and over more tree root stairs than I could keep track of and eventually heard the beautiful sound of falls…… We had arrived at Cedar Falls and to our complete surprise there was only one other couple there and upon our arrival they left.  Again we tore off our clothes and quickly got into the water and let the falls cleanse our beings……. IMG_1298We ate lunch on a rock and soaked in the sunshine and drank all the beauty of the area!!! Our hike back was along the rim trail that hugged the top of the cliffs we traveled under on the way in.  It was fun to see the drastically different perspectives.  I kept reading about this “Gorge” we were on and my mind kept wandering back to the MAJESTIC New River Gorge and all the memories we created there.  I kept reminding my self to stay present and to enjoy the unique beauty this place has to offer us as well. To appreciate this place in this moment and to unlock that magic that is born between each breath in every place we are.

We continued on our hike and stopped to enjoy the sights of Rose Lake. IMG_1295You simply couldn’t ask for a more gorgeous day!! We sang songs and played rhyming games and told each other stories as we hiked in the lush forest, (we even stopped to eat some wild mushrooms along the way) IMG_1294we were headed towards HOME.  We got back and immediately were greeted by the drunken screams of our neighbors. Sienna ran to play with the girls and I mustered up the grace to walk over and chat for a moment.  They were focused on slamming shots and chugging beers so chatting with me was not on their agenda. I obliged their cues and retreated back to my camper.  I was pleasantly surprised when the warm energy of the woman from this morning showed up to say hello.  It was such a welcomed exchange after the harsh energy I just left.  We chatted for awhile and found out we had a lot in common and decided we would all go on a hike together tomorrow.  So tonight I count the moments until quiet time in the campground and focus on inhaling peace and exhaling the annoyance.  I shift my focus to the beautiful day I had and look forward to sharing time with a sweet new friend tomorrow…….

Love & Light                                                                                                                                                    Me

A few quick thoughts……

Man do I long to be deep in the belly of The Gorge!!!! We have successfully arrived in Hocking Hills State Park in Ohio. There is supposed to be good hiking in the area with some beautiful waterfalls and I’m close to a good friend we will visit between here and Cuyahoga National Park, which we plan on visiting.  Driving here was really beautiful.  We got to watch the scenery change, leaving the thick mountains that stole my heart, entering historic cities, crossing the Ohio River and driving trough the gentle rolling hills that housed huge farms all with a more stunning old barn than the last.  I smiled often at the beauty of each barn, noticing the different characteristics that made each one majestic in it’s own way! Barns bring me such joy for all that they represent both culturally and in my own personal history.  I loved watching the sunlight dance across the corn fields as they changed a thousand different shades of gold and green.  As much as I loved the gentle nature of these rolling hills, my mind kept wandering back to the severe drops alone the mountains that were perfectly carved by the creeks and streams that fed The New River to create the dramatic Gorge nestled deep into the “No Service” areas of West Virginia.

We got within 30 miles of Hocking Hills area and in my classic form of heading off into the next place with no plan, I pulled into a Wal-Mart to use the restroom and figure out where we would stay for the night.  It was 5:30 pm, so there was still plenty of daylight to find a cool spot.  After 30 min of searching I realized all the free sites in National Land or Land Management were about 2 hours away and I decided to bite the bullet and pay to stay in the State Park.  As we pulled in, Sienna’s heart was practically bursting out of her chest with immense excitement to see how many families with kids were here!!! The last 10 days we have been in a free site which has it’s pluses and minuses.  (Some of the pluses are that you are deep in some sort of National Land area, you are surrounded by nature, there are few people because there is no electric/water/dumping hook-ups so it’s mostly primitive campers or at least people who know how to deal with the elements, there are no big RV’s and you are usually surrounded by people who are out in nature to be out in nature not bring everything they own into nature (although we defy this thought lol) and you are usually surrounded by people who are budget conscious! Some of the minuses are there is no electric/water hook-ups, there are no shower facilities, there is no running water even for brushing teeth or doing dishes or to fill your water reservior for hiking, and there are few kids for Sienna to play with. I’m sure there’s more in each department but these are the meaningful ones for us right now.)

So we pulled in and Sienna completed her set-up responsibilities in record time and set out on her bike to make some friends.  Within minutes she was coming to get her babydoll to bring to play with two young girls her age in the next site over.  I was overcome with the concrete and commercialism of the space and felt one lonely tear drop down my face.  I was happy she was happy, but I wanted to be back, deep in the forest where the mountains met the river and we were the only constant campers in the place. I felt the heat in the exposed site and with a mixture of sadness and gratitude I turned on the AC in the camper and was glad to have electric to plug in to.  As I continued to set up I chatted with neighbors as they set up their beer pong table for the tournament they were planning……. This is a far cry from where we just came from.  I know there will be so many experiences that effect us both in such different ways, and I know they are all necessary, as the Universe provides us BOTH with what we need….. But, I can’t help but long to be back in the belly of The Gorge!!!

Love & Light

Me

There’s no denying it…..Fairies are REAL if you BELIEVE!!

The next day I had to get work done so we settled into Vandal’s Kitchen AGAIN for a long day of internet work.  We ate breakfast IMG_1228AND lunch there and closed the place down at 3:00.  Sienna and I decided to take a hike to burn off some restless energy from focused work all day with very little release.  We hiked the Headhouse Trail in Nuttallburg and explored the old mine entrance and headhouse that processed the coal they sent down to the river to be loaded into coke ovens and trains to be shipped off to be used for energy.

It was a tough hike but we loved each moment as we were the only ones on the trail and we love when there aren’t tons of people around.  Then we wanted to make sure we saw Sandstone Falls before we left the area because we heard they were so beautiful!! We hiked around and watched an epic sunset over the falls before we headed home exhausted from a long day.

We decided we would go to the Beckley Coal Exhibition the following day and head out of West Virginia and on to our next spot.  We went to the exhibition and learned so much!! They took you into an old coal mine on an old miners car and you really got to get the feel of the working conditions these guys spent their life in.

There was an old coal mine village that was kept historic with authentic everything inside the houses.  There was an old school house and a church and the superintendents house and a miner’s family home. Sienna and I LOVED looking at the old washers, irons, stoves, fridges, etc and chatted with a beautiful older woman who was embarrassed to tell me her age but finally did (76) and her 89 year old boyfriend who were both children of coal miner families, who gave us detailed descriptions of life in that time in this area.

It was straight out of a movie!!!  As we wrapped things up I received an amazing text that indicated that Evan was coming back to WV to hang for a bit longer before he reported for a new job on the 24th! SERIOUSLY…. How can this even be real life?!?!?!?!

Both Sienna and I celebrated this news and we headed back to camp for dinner and excitedly chatted about what we would do for the next few days.  I wanted to go to yoga Sunday mooring again and Evan asked if he could join……. ummmmmm HELLO, YES!!!! It was a rainy day so the class was moved to the studio in Fayetteville from the deck overlooking the Gorge (which was also where I was planning on taking my first shower since I left Keven’s house, oh about 10 days ago. Those that know me are laughing right now and thinking that’s just par for the course…. others are completely freaked out and grossed out beyond normalcy….. I’ll just say, I was in the river or lake almost every day and I think that counts for some sort of hygiene practice, lol….. but even I was ready to shave my armpits and wash my hair at this point). So we shifted gears quickly and raced to the Kula Studio.  Sienna decided she wanted to practice and I was in COMPLETE HEAVEN once again!!! The class and my mat gifted me an otherworldly experience and I was washed in bliss.  We headed to breakfast and the rain just wasn’t letting up.  We decided to head back to the showers, rent a redbox and CHILL…..

Staying in a free camping spot has lots of benefits as I’ve discussed, but one of the downfalls is there are usually no shower facilities.  I am totally fine going pretty long periods without a shower, especially when I’m in the water daily……. But even I was feeling pretty greasy at this point!! We got back to the boat house and Sienna and I snuck into the shower rooms. We turned the shower on and just the sound brought a smile to my face. I couldn’t wait to step in…… With the first step I shook and goose bumps filed my body, HOLY CRAP the water was ice cold!!! Sienna and I checked all the other showers and found one that was warmer, but it had a press handle that would spit water for about 10 seconds before it shut off and you’d have to press it again for another 10 seconds and that was the cycle.  I decided to deal with a constant cold flow and relish every second of clean water washing the soap off my body. Sienna decided to fight with the warmer water for a bit before she got frustrated and joined me in the cold.  I must have washed and rinsed my body at least 4 times. I actually even enjoyed shaving because it gave me an excuse to stay in the shower longer……. Ahhhhhhhh that was the best freezing cold 20 minutes of my life!!! It’s the little things that make such a big difference living on the road!  It was still raining so we headed to the camper to watch our RedBox movie.  We arrived to find out that the computer only had 19% charge. The other down side of a free camping spot is there is no electric, not even in the bathrooms to hijack for a charge….. so we headed back up the mountain to use the outside plug at the Exxon station.  We sat in the car chatting and getting snacks and junk and playing on our devices until the computer was about 90% charged (about an hour) and then headed BACK DOWN the mountain for movie time!  You very quickly learn to have patience and roll with things living like this or else you end up annoyed and frustrated at all times.  We continue to learn things don’t go how we WANT them to go, they go how they NEED to go for us to learn the lessons we need!! By the evening the clouds broke and we started to see some blue in the sky….. IMG_1346

We walked down to the river and talked and made cairns and made faces with rocks and had treasure hunts as we watched the clouds turn different shades of pink as the sun’s rays drifted behind the mountains and the nights darkness claimed it’s place in the sky!!!

We ate dinner, decided to watch another movie and slowly drifted off to sleep.  The next day we headed out for one last day on the river.  While getting ready for the day, Sienna and I met a really cute couple who was also living out of their van while traveling the country.  We traded stories and checked out each others living spaces and got new ideas for efficiency and traded must see places with each other.  I am loving this new tribe I am finding and absolutely LOVE sharing stories of how we ended up in this alternative way of life…… Finding out what brought someone else to the place of leaving their “normal life” to hit the road and live out of a vehicle in search of something different.  I always leave these conversations feeling so secure in my decision and rooted in my own truth and life experiences that brought me here!  We got to the river and and headed out for our last run.  DSC08022It was a cooler day so we definitely didn’t linger as long as normal and both Sienna and I huddled a bit to let our own body heat warm us up as we worked our way down the river.  The river level was higher than it had been which changed elements and made some rapids more dangerous and others were much more mild.  It is crazy to see how the different weather conditions effect the river and our experience on it.

It was mystical and magical and even though I was cold, I didn’t want the day to end.  As the sun dropped behind the ridge we boogied off and headed back to camp to have a bonfire by the river.

We all gathered twigs and sticks and logs looking forward to the warmth it would provide and the good times we would enjoy before Evan left in the morning.

We spent hours down by the fire,  continuously feeding it in the hope that if the fire was burning it would demand the night to stay and we could watch the moon beams dance between the clouds and the leaves on the trees forever. IMG_1355 Once again I wanted a pause button for my life to slow this night down to a stand still to enjoy it for longer.  We continued sharing stories and dreams and hopes and laughs until our eyes became so heavy even toothpick would’t keep them open.  We laid on a big rock with eyes closed and I took in every sound, every smell, every sense on my skin and let it burn itself into my memory!!! When I couldn’t listen or hear or feel any deeper we surrendered to the night and let it take us into the next day.

I think we all moved in slow motion that morning, again in a feeble attempt to slow things down, as we knew good-byes were getting near.  We lounged around and had a lazy breakfast.  I packed the car with the laundry I needed to do and all my work stuff to spend the afternoon working at the laundromat while Evan drove home to start his own new journey.  We said long goodbyes and headed up the mountain.  We came up to the normal stop sign we usually coasted through on the way to the highway and Evan stopped his van.  The next thing I knew he was walking back to our car talking about what a beautiful, sunny day it was. I agreed and silently wished we had more time, but knew he needed to get going to prep and I had work to do anyway. The next sentence was music to my ears. “Hey you guys want to go spend a few hours at the Summerville Lake and climb some more?  It’s just to pretty of a day to be spent inside!” Ummmmmmmmmmm once again, before he could get the whole sentence out, I was violently nodding my head and saying, “YES, YES, YES!!!” So we grabbed food for lunch and headed to the lake.  IMG_1352We spent the afternoon climbing and floating around on my SUP.  Letting the sunbeams cover our bodies with gentle kisses as we splashed and laughed and soaked in every last second of JOY and BLISS!!!

DSC08072I felt to content, like absolutely everything the world was in perfect order! The sun started dropping in the sky and we knew we could no longer drag out the inevitable.

We said our goodbyes and drove in opposite directions…… IMG_1354The tears dropped again, but something was different.  I kept getting hit with a knowing.  A knowing that this incredible gift was exactly what we ALL needed in our lives….. A knowing that the Universe is wise and kind and ALWAYS sees the bigger picture even when I can’t.  A knowing that this time confirmed dreams and solidified what I want in life.  A knowing that Sienna and I have so many more adventures and healing and experiences to share.  A knowing that I can listen to the quiet whispers of my heart and show up for life in a transparent and authentic way and REALLY amazing things will unfold!!! A knowing that there is more to come…… We headed to the laundromat, got everything prepped for our next stop and headed out of West Virginia different people.  The growth and healing that occurred in this magical place with live on in us forever!! We will let it continue to settle into our souls and enjoy every special gift we both received!!! Our hearts are fuller, our eyes are clearer, our dreams are bigger and we are both better people that who we were when we pulled into this incredible state!!! THANK YOU WEST VIRGINIA!!! Stay Wild and Wonderful, until we meet again……………..

Love & Light                                                                                                                                                    Me